Leave Better

Can I just be fer reals for a sec.

This race has been kinda HARD. I HATE being in the limelight. HATE it. It makes me itchy. And even more than that I HATE being annoying. The thought of my friends rolling their eyes and saying "GRRRRR, I wish she'd leave. me. alone!" puts me into a fit of tremors.

I'm kinda wimpy for someone with a stone cold heart, eh?

I get scared to ask for votes sometimes. Social media is awesome, but it can bite you it the bootie too.

Can all of you join me for a sec in a group hug for one of my cute Beehives. She got so excited about this job competition that she sent a message out to all her Facebook peeps asking them to vote for me. Oh gosh, it started a storm that is 125 message replies strong. People were swearing at her and threatening her and sending out all these poisonous vibes into her universe. And mine.

IT DOTH MAKE ME SAD!

I just want to be a positive force in the world, is that so wrong?

Place of refuge, remember?

But even though this race has been uncomfortable, for some reason I've been totally chill for like a week. Chilled out major. No meds. No chemical substance (besides tryptophan). No hard core exercise. Just calm. Like PEACE out, man!

Before Thanksgiving I went to Walmart and I felt so chillaxed I decided to smile at everyone who met my eyeballs (which frankly wasn't that many), but only one person smiled back.

Why did only person smile back?

I live in HAPPY Valley for goodness sakes!

On the upside, this race has also been SO. MUCH. FUN! I have loved catching up with so many old and dear friends. I have loveloved giving stuff away on my blog. And I have loveloveloved receiving so much support from my friends.

I am the luckiest dummy in the world. My friends ROCK.

IT DOTH MAKE ME HAPPY!

It's almost over and I shiver with joy to think on it's conclusion. But I will miss the constant reminders that I am lubbed. And that peeps believe in me. It has confirmed to me how much we NEED positive vibes swirling around us. We must must must send only positive vibes into the universe. For everyone's sake.

As Judy Blume would say, "We must. We must. We must increase our trust!" (I think that's what she said.)

So many people have sent me positive vibes which have helped me increase my trust. In others. In myself. And in the power of the universe.

Today I received these photos from one of my old students, Becky Suzuki, in Japan:

From JAPAN!

And did you see my name in front of the Hachi statue? Becky didn't know how hard I bawled my eyeballs out through that movie. I mean, serious SOBS! Even talking about the movie later threw me into fits of tears so much so that my children, bless their hearts, did tease me incessantly. (Here's the post to prove it.)

I LUB HACHI SO DANG MUCH! I can't believe my name is even in the same vicinity as that amazing dog.

It must be a sign of good things to come.

Mahalo Becky Suzuki!

And I also received these photos from my cutie patootie next door neighbor kids in the old hood from Laie. Nana and Jimmy and gang (Martha's kids) are responsible.

You guys, that's MY HOUSE!

10-A.

I AM 10-A.

They're standing on MY front porch saying VOTE FOR DEBBIE.

I painted that front porch. And those wood chips . . . I did that too. THAT'S MY HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!

WAAAAAAHHHHHH!

Martha and Swirl can both testify that I SOBBED gut wrenching cries of pain and anguish when I was dragged away from 10-A. Huh, Martha? Huh? Huh? Huh? Even louder than my Hachi sobs.

Gosh, I sob a lot for someone with a stone cold heart, don't I?

MAHALO Nana, Jimmy and brat pack friends. LUB YOU!

Okay, I've been wanting to post the lyrics to what I like to call my theme song--the song which plays behind my SAM-e video--for quite some time. And this seems like an appropriate moment:

The song is called LEAVE BETTER by Paul Benton.

Show me a world without so much hurt and I will
fly like the wind to it.

Show me a place that's
all filled with grace and I will strive to get to it.

If we get through all this, we can have all we wish.

[chorus]
ohh
Leave better all that you find. So leave this world
with a smile.

Lets not complain of all that's insane,
but rather do something about it
yeah yeah.

Let's not look back at all that we lack, but rather
prove that we can change it.

If we get through all of this, We can have all we wish

ohh
Leave better all that you find. So leave this world
with a smile.

I have seen a lot of things in my life, that leave me feeling hopefulinside. 

That's why I want to stand today and say,

ohh
Leave better all that you find. So leave this world
with a smile.

Leave better all that you find.

I testify that this is true. And that my name is Deb. And that I approve this message.

Amen.

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